beadwork

I've been using sculpey clay of late. I actually enjoy using it a lot. I get an idea, start sculpting, change my mind about 5 times during the process, scrap some projects altogether and start over, and then get a creation I'm glad to have made. I've done jewelry, fake food , and clay figurines so far. The more I do the more I learn and grow as an inexperienced artist. I'm looking forward to seeing where this goes, and who knows, once I actually gain some experience and technique maybe I'll be able to sell some stuff. That would be a really cool job.

Here are pics of my latest projects. I apologize for some of them being dark, but the flash on my camera unfortunately has no adjustment for close up images.

where is my weight?

So, If I'm honest with myself, I weigh about 280lbs. It's the most I've ever weighed, and has bothered me for a while. I've only weighed this much for about six months, but I really would like to take it off as soon as possible. I've tried the shangri-la diet,weight watchers, south beach, atkins, and others, but it seems that I always end up a little bigger than before. Which, in a word, is frustrating.

There are experts that say that there is so much more to losing weight than just eating less, and in part they are right. It's almost like an addiction, a comfort that is there no matter what, without judgement or comment. I turn to food to aid me in hard times and get me up when I'm down, rather than doing something which would _really_ make me feel better, like taking a walk or getting out of the ding dong house for once!

I'm not a person that loves to go out to parties every night, or that wants to be around 500 different friends at a time. I do love adventure, though. Seeing new things and meeting new people makes a huge difference in my day.

It's hard to focus on that when you have a habit of eating to while away the time, cooking to keep yourself from going stir crazy, sleeping to escape depression. There are a lot of things that need to change in my lifestyle for me to lose weight. Eating would be one of them, but all the other factors are going to have to do with it as well.

My child ate rabbit poop.

He ate rabbit poop. I can't believe it. It was only a lick, but what if? I did a quick search and found a yahoo answers post that was somewhat calming, and he's not dropped dead. He doesn't even look sickly, which is more than I can say for myself. I suppose that's enough to let me wait until morning to call the pediatrician.

The first thought I had was that the rabbit must go. But I took on the rabbit with the idea that any child-rabbit interactions would be monitored (which they are) and any problems arising I would work through. I would even go the the HRS and get help if need be. I read and researched quite a bit and learned all about the possible problems between rabbits and children before getting one. I heard all about a rabbits wonderful friendly personalities (after a while) and the way they get along with cats (marvelously). The cat part is true, at least. I researched rabbit potty training techniques. Followed them as best I possibly could.

I'm left wondering if I should have gotten a rabbit though. It hides all the time, unless it's interrupting nap time for me by jumping on my face and scaring the shit out of me. It's adorable, and incredibly soft. It's got it's merits and downfalls, like any other animal. The only thing I can do is wait and see. I've taken the rabbit with a good intention and a commitment to making it work for the rabbits natural life. Rabbit lifespans are up to 10 years in captivity. So, no more poop in the mouth, please son? Try and make it a little easier on mommy.


Yeah, right.