beadwork

I've been using sculpey clay of late. I actually enjoy using it a lot. I get an idea, start sculpting, change my mind about 5 times during the process, scrap some projects altogether and start over, and then get a creation I'm glad to have made. I've done jewelry, fake food , and clay figurines so far. The more I do the more I learn and grow as an inexperienced artist. I'm looking forward to seeing where this goes, and who knows, once I actually gain some experience and technique maybe I'll be able to sell some stuff. That would be a really cool job.

Here are pics of my latest projects. I apologize for some of them being dark, but the flash on my camera unfortunately has no adjustment for close up images.

where is my weight?

So, If I'm honest with myself, I weigh about 280lbs. It's the most I've ever weighed, and has bothered me for a while. I've only weighed this much for about six months, but I really would like to take it off as soon as possible. I've tried the shangri-la diet,weight watchers, south beach, atkins, and others, but it seems that I always end up a little bigger than before. Which, in a word, is frustrating.

There are experts that say that there is so much more to losing weight than just eating less, and in part they are right. It's almost like an addiction, a comfort that is there no matter what, without judgement or comment. I turn to food to aid me in hard times and get me up when I'm down, rather than doing something which would _really_ make me feel better, like taking a walk or getting out of the ding dong house for once!

I'm not a person that loves to go out to parties every night, or that wants to be around 500 different friends at a time. I do love adventure, though. Seeing new things and meeting new people makes a huge difference in my day.

It's hard to focus on that when you have a habit of eating to while away the time, cooking to keep yourself from going stir crazy, sleeping to escape depression. There are a lot of things that need to change in my lifestyle for me to lose weight. Eating would be one of them, but all the other factors are going to have to do with it as well.